So, turns out i posted my blog on facebook, some people probably found it funny and feel the need to laugh at me but to be honest, I really could not care less, I am bored and if you're reading this you obviously enjoy my blogs or your just a nosey bitch ahhaha.
I'm really annoyed. I have had these fake nails for like 2 weeks and they all look good except for one of my thumbs.. one of them fell off.. so now I feel inclined to rip them off but that would hurt and then I think my nails would just look uglier? Hmm, I guess i'll just leave them..
I guess i'll just continue talking about my life. It's going okay at the moment, I mean, I'm stuck with the biggest dilemnia (is that how you spell it..? I've always been a terrible speller) of my life of what exactly I want to do. To be honest, I'd just love to work and earn money and not have to stress about assignments or exams but hey, subway isn't gonna be doing me much good in 20yrs time is it...Not to mention, I have worked there for 3 years already. 3 YEARS! I am so curious as to how many sandwiches I have made over those years.. thousands probably..
Anyway, back to my life. Something, or rather, someone, has been playing on my mind for weeks now and to be honest I never really think it will go away. No, I am not inlove. I just miss my dog Toby. I don't remember life without him other than the past year. You know how there's that saying a dog is a man's best friend, or whatever it is? Well why is it gender specific! I'm a girl and i miss my dog like crazy, he was my best friend and I loved him SO MUCH. I think the saying should be altered, but anyway.. He was always there, whenever I came home. He would run to the door. If I was asleep in the morning, he would stratch and whine at my door until I woke up. He would cuddle up to me wherever I was and if I was in my room he would always be there because I was the only one who would let him sleep on my bed. I miss him so much. A few months ago I had a dream about him. And I swear it was like his spirit or whatever coming back to me. I dreamt that when I came home, he ran up to me at the door, but in my dream I knew he was dead so I just ignored it, thinking that I was seeing things. Then I realised he was actually there and in my dream I was crying and cuddling him because I was so happy yet so sad at the same time because I knew he was dead. It was seriously one of the most emotional dreams of my life. I don't think many people can relate to me. I just love animals so much I don't know why. Ask Ariel, she will tell you how excited I AM to see her dog Nina when I come visit haha.
It's really weird once people, or animals, are gone out of your life how different things change. To be honest, I never really thought a dog would make me that much happier but just having a little happy creature around lightens the mood of the house and yourself, despite whatever mood you are in. They can never do anything wrong really, it's not like they can say the wrong thing to you or betray you. You are their owner so they have no reason to hate you. They will always love you. I guess that's why I like them so much - who doesn't want to feel loved?
I just realised it was 12.18am, luckily I don't start university until 11am tomorrow :)
I will post more tomorrow.
xoxo
Kelface
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